I am reposting most of what I wrote in the New Member Introductions:

I came to PsychCentral because, initially I was seeking relief from the agony of transference. I couldn't seem to find a resolution with my current therapist but could not seem to break away, either. I did quit for several months, but during that time I sank into a deep depression and lost enough weight to have to go see a doctor.

Several months ago I went to see another therapist while still in therapy with my current therapist to help me find a way out the confusion. This "secondary" therapist now believes that I might have DID. I am freaked out by the prospect! I believe it's all got to do with the trauma of my original therapist rejecting my transference but I can't be sure.

I do know my life has been nothing short of chaos. I just can't seem to live one day at a time. Or even one moment at a time like a normal, healthy functioning adult. If I have DID wouldn't I be aware of it?

I probably need to be in the Psychotherapy forum and I am going to go there but I am desperate for some feedback from those who absolutely know they have DID.

Penthus