My boyfriend came home. He went to see our family doctor and told him what happened. Our doc wants us to both come in at 1:00 tomorrow. I can't go, I am way to tired. I am sick of talking about all of this. I don't want to go there anymore. My boyfriend was finally honest about everything. He was afraid to tell me whats going on for him because he doesnt want to put more on my shoulders. He feels really bad and wants to get help; together. I am just so tired of going to these appointments and beating this into their heads.
(((dex))))); my thoughts are racing but I wont take my life while I have my kids here. Its okay. But thanks for the suggestion. I did that before; they called an ambulance without telling me and they dragged me 45mins out of town to a psychiatric facility. No thanks. I do agree with the hospital and I told my t that I will go; as soon as my kids are gone. just need to hold on till then. I dont know though, just keep thinking about my kids. But I cant get the thought out of my head; they are better off without me.
just.......