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Jun 12, 2014, 08:31 PM
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Member Since: Nov 2013
Location: NM
Posts: 349
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Originally Posted by -jimi-
I don't plan coming off it but I plan to keep down my dosage more. I do notice I have issues with short term memory and forming new memories on a too high dosage. I usually take 0.75 mg but it is too much and I will strive to be OK on 0.25-0.5 mg. And use the med more PRN compared to how I have the last years.
I also have a long history of anxiety, back to when I was around 6. I think it's then children start to learn they are not safe in the world (if they had decent parents like mine and no accidents or trauma), noticing people get sick, suffer, die, how much unfairness there is out there, how life actually always hangs in the balance.
I was quite sensitive so those things freaked me out, I think I basically freaked myself out just by looking at the world. I don't think any adult guidance could have stopped this, I would just have seen through it if it had been a lie. I wasn't badly treated or anything.
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Thank you! I can sure relate to what you say here. I was anxious as a child and I believe it was because I never felt safe and my mom had too many kids and worked full time (24/7!) at my parents' business. I was fairly safe, but it had to do with where we lived, on a main highway behind the business with motels on each side of our property. I know that a grown man who lived next door and worked in the grocery store was stalking me. There was another of the same kind who I met at the city swimming pool; he was masquarading as much younger than he was. Also I had to work in the business and I was horribly shy. Strange people came in. I had no idea how to wait on people and was sometimes left alone there, was taught nothing. I was too young for that.
Geeze, how I wish I had thought of just staying on a very low dose of Xanax instead of going back on 1 mg., but I was really suffering from panic attacks and anxiety. I will know better the next time and will go down much, much slower.
I have always been super-duper, extra sensitive to everything also. Nobody else in my family was like that at all. I would rather be me than any of them, though! Thank you for sharing your experience.
PrairieCat
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