I guess I'm just looking for an explanation as to why I always feel so emotionally volatile and relationally inept. Why is it I am so afraid of people abandoning me ALL THE TIME? Why do I feel like people hate me if they do one little thing wrong? Why am I terrified of getting close to people? Why do I see nothing but how terrible I am when I think about myself, down to the fact that my very voice on a recording or picture in a frame are disgusting to me? These are such extreme reactions to such normal things, and it puzzles me.