Everything sux! Life sux, relationships suck,work sucks, Nothing gets better. I dont think the meds are working anymore, i dont want to go back to the Pdoc. Everything is black, a deep dark hole, I keep slipping in, deeper, and deeper. I feel terrible, I have a very bad constant headache,my stomach hurts, i really dont want to go on in this stupid life anymore. I cant help but to think of all the people that have passed on that deserved to live more than me. I really dont understand y I cant just go, dosent god even want me? Y does he want me to suffer? things just do not get better at all 4 me, just worse. I am hurting so bad right now, i cant stop crying. I want to just go away 4ever.