Oh I see. I think I worded my question poorly. I can't control my emotions either. I just used to be able to control ummm... the face I present to the world. Now, I can't really do that either.

Like, typically I won't be able to make it to the ladies room before I start crying at work. Some days I just cry at my desk because I'm too busy to stop working. I just let tears stream down my face and hope nobody walks over to talk to me.

Last fall it got really bad to the point where I was getting explosively angry at work. Over the top, and out of my control. I'm a little better now. Mostly it's crying, not as much explosive anger. Although, I did scream at a co-worker yesterday. I wasn't mad "at" her, just mad and screaming. I apologized right after. She knew I wasn't mad at her. And she was the one inciting me anyway. She told me this stuff to piss me off, and got the reaction she was looking for.