I try so hard, Sky, but what I see inside is not much different from the world outside.

I have made who I am, for the most part, and I understand that I must suffer the consequences.

For the most part, that is not my problem, for I ought to endure the pain I, myself, have inflicted.

I just can't (or don't want to???) allow for healing - at least not enough to give myself a break.

I know He is with me - I KNOW HE IS WITH ME!! I just want to stand, with my head held high, in spite of all this pain...

I just don't know how to...as much as I want and need to.

If only I could let go, just a little more...

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