My mom was just in the hospital a few weeks ago to get bypass surgery on her leg because of no circulation. I was so scared. I wasn't able to visit but a few times the whole week she was there, and I couldn't call her - she didn't feel like talking. For the first time in my life - I'm 42 - I realized just how important my mom was to me and what it would be like if she weren't here anymore. I told myself, what if this absence were permanent?? Since she's been home, I've been visiting almost everyday. I'm only a 15-minute drive away. I know one day it will be permanent, and that scares me, too. I understand your worries and fears. Just think that the mammogram will find out if anything is wrong, and if there is something, the doctors can fix it. It's best to have one than not and not know and let things go. I'm sure all will be well. I had a lump on my breast a couple years ago that I had removed. I was able to get my surgery low-cost through the health department and get free mammograms afterward. I regret now that I didn't go to my follow-up mammogram. It was free. I kick myself for it. It's really a good thing to do.