Well I'm awake... feeling bloody miserable right now

Went to B&Q (hardware franchise in the UK) and bought two different types of rat traps/killers but will wait before putting them down till the wife is back. Let the dog out of the kitchen and she made a bee line for what I assume is where it's (hopefully there is just one... being optimistic here) hiding and then started barking and pawing at surrounding area... part of me wants her to catch it but then the sensible part doesn't want her to catch any diseases so I've told her to leave it and she's buggered off into the front room to sulk.

Re asking for help... I'm just scared too... I have the crisis team number... but I really don't know what I'd say to them and as such I'm chickening out

Far easier to just feel miserable and cut.