I lost my mother two months ago... I spent the first two weeks blackout drunk and after that started abusing sleeping pills. I told a friend about the alcohol and that I wasn't drinking anymore but not why. The pills I kept a secret until yesterday. I told 3 people and my therapist about it and got all of the pills and alcohol out of my house. I live alone and don't work. At first I could clearly see that the situational depression and the bp were separate and managed to keep that going for 6 weeks. But then the 2 collided and I don't know which end is up. I can't stop crying and I don't know what to do to make the pain stop. Obviously the drugs and alcohol aren't the answer but if anyone has some tips on how you've gotten thru this it would be really appreciated cus I need this pain to stop. I see my pdoc next week but don't want to change my meds since I finally found a combo that was working great until this happened. Help please.