I sorry you lost your mom. Having lost mine several years ago, I know it will take time. Have you considered therapy to help you through the grief? I started a journal written to my mother, which helped me keep her closer to me. It's the hardest thing I've ever gone through. I still have days that I miss her so much it hurts. But time does ease the pain. I'm sorry there is no quick fix for grief. Thinking of you.