I am amazed at what has come out of me in therapy already. I'm not one who finds it easy to talk to people. I started therapy for things happening currently in my life, but she's teaching me that in order to help the "now" stuff, we have to start from the beginning. There has been a lot of trauma in my life, starting as a child. T has me talking about things I didn't think I wanted to ever bring up, I'm amazing myself how much I have opened up in the short time I've known her. I'm also amazed how important things are that I happen to mention, not thinking it's a big deal, but she sees it as something very important to know. I'm amazed how much she "gets" me in a short period of time, she already knows me better than I know myself. She hits the nail on the head with everything she says.

I fear this long road ahead, but am comforted knowing that the first person ended up being the "right fit" for me. The power she seems to have to bring things to the surface just amazes me. I'm NOT this open. But feel myself being an open book with her. I'm comfortable. Nervous, but comfortable. I know that doesn't make sense....

I cried for the first time yesterday....but managed to really hold back. Instead of a full out cry where ya can't even talk, I just had some tears and a shaky voice.....I never feel more vulnerable than when I cry in front of someone. But, I think she's a perfect fit. Nearly half my life is over....and just now, I'm starting to deal with the skeletons in the closet. It's scary as hell, but I feel hopeful. I just wanted to share.

The only unfortunate thing is that I see her for 50 minutes once a week. It takes me half that time to get comfortable and really talking, and the time just flies too fast.