I am alone most of the day in a rural area far away friends or family. I'm happy when I talk then but I can't do it all the time. I'm always nervous, worried about future and can't stop my mind. Most of time I'm alone waste the time crying, laying in the sofa trying to hide me of the sun. I'm only comfortable when it's raining or at night, don't know why.
I can't tell nobody how I feel, how I'm scared about the future.
Because everybody look at me as an alien.
Yeah, depression is so horrible and I feel completely alone and ununderstanded.