After 5 years in school i am finally graduating secondary! I'm happy because i've finished my exams and have now started my 3 month summer holiday! however, i will be losing touch with friends i've come to know and love as we will be going different colleges. Not only that but i had to stress over making sure i had a college to go to (i was in hospital during the time we had to apply for colleges).

overall i was happy though, i wanted to celebrate today with my family as it is after all a massive step in my life. that however was not the case. i'm not the most perfect child but i am less spoilt than my sisters as we have different dads (mine which i dont know). my mum sees me as a moody, anti-social hooligan and is constantly telling me i'm rude, have an attitude (dont speak much) or how my face looks disgustingly miserable even when i'm fine.

i feel isolated. i cant talk to anyone/do anything in my household without being accused of doing something wrong. i know im not a bad kidd and sometimes it upsets (now) when they dont see that... especially my mum as she is the only blood relative i have. she always chooses my step dads side (he hates me and wishes i never existed so he could have a perfect family without me). i'm quite and prefer my own company which is opposite to everyone else in my family.

i dont know whether any of this made sense, my tears are kinda getting in my way. i just really felt like writing down my thoughts.