I do have experience though…as much as I know how to get anyway. Like I said, my advisor couldn't help me and neither could career services.

I've participated in many groups and I'm published. That of course isn't enough. I've tried time and time again to get an assistantship for the experience, but as usual I'm one of the very few people in my department who hasn't gotten one. I have an inkling as to why and I've worked to improve in my weaker areas, but it won't make a difference for at least a year anyway at this point.

I would mention occupations I've considered, but I'm sure everyone will tell me to get switch degrees and/or I'm wasting my time so I've thought better of it. I shouldn't have to apologize or explain to people that I know what I was placed on Earth to do. I just don't know personally how to profit off of it, unlike most other people in the field. I have just apparently not manipulated people enough. Perhaps I don't have anything worth trading? I am biologically female so I would think that what's between my legs would be enough and now that I'm finally willing to trade that for success, maybe there's still hope after all?