I am not saying you are choosing the safe side and familiar by staying with your T. I had no thought of you seeking another T because you seem so attached to this one and that would make anyone want to stay, I assumed you did as well. I was wrong and I apologize.

I don't know what makes you want to leave but my guess it would be your attachment rather than her violations. I think it scares you ,as it will scare me. It isn't easy to invite someone in to our skeletons closet.

I just believe before I turn on that light and expose myself, that person should be making decisions based on my needs, not hers. That's what I pay for her, that's her job.

If my therapist fails me, I hope I don't abuse myself.