hi my.lacerated.heart
I am sorry to hear you are struggling with such deep lonliness. I don't have an answer for you as I am used to being lonely. I just don't focus on it. perhaps a good therapist could help you cope with these feelings. welcome to psych central. you will find that we have several forums where you can post about your concerns and receive feedback from other members. you will get a lot of support here. again, welcome