I understand. I get all the time people telling me "if you just smile that will fix everything" If only life were really, that simple and its not like we all don't wear our "smile masks" a lot of the time. I just started PC but having this to express those feelings I am hoping will help. I cry myself to sleep most nights and the nightmares cause me to wake crying. I don't know how long you have been with this person, but take it day by day, and when you feel comfortable to tell them, then you do.