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Originally Posted by InRealLife45
I disagree.
Saturday:
I responded to the email she sent me saying I had to pay for future sessions saying I couldn't afford that fee. then a 1 minute phone call to say I'd be there Monday.
Sunday:
1 voicemail left to say that I wouldn't be at my Monday session after all (due to hospitalization, but I didnt tell her why).
Monday:
1 text to ask if my Wed session was still available, and if so to please hold it for me, as I expected to be out on Tuesday.
All of the contact was regarding scheduling/payment, and I don't think it has anything to do with my being borderline. It all was regarding scheduling and payment.
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I say without second thought bc her stance never changed from the saturday e-mail= pay me full fee or goodbye.
How is that anything but "without second thought?"
Additionally, my insurance has told her no less than three times that they will continue to cover my sessions as of june 1, and they are working on pulling up a new contract, but that they'll definitely pay for the sessions- she says shes not going to see me until a contract is signed bc she doesn't believe them, so if I want to come in the meantime I still need to pay full fee.
I'm trying not to let my inner borderline out, bc I will do something really mean. Trying not to bc I know its a borderline reaction, but my whole body is screaming at me to do it. But I don't want to be that person.
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I do see what you are saying. The borderline aspect, is in the thought process, as my intention. It's the all or nothing, emotions ruling the reaction thinking, the sense of abandonment and rejection, is where I am looking at your mentioned diagnosis.
If she makes an exception for you, does she not have to make an exception for any others?
Overcoming the hurt, and recognition of it not being personal, but business angled, is about overcoming that fight response, does it not?
You've written, if she has a signed contract, she'd continue to treat you?
According to Marsha Linehans CBT for Borderline Personality Disorder, she mentioned that vindictiveness is not part of the illness. I can quote the page, given time to breeze through it..
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