My boyfriend, our mutual friend, and I have all been good friends for a good deal of time, but I always feel like I'm kind of... getting the short end of the stick among the three of us. I tend to get the last say in what we do together, I get ignored/overlooked a lot, and they just... seem to have more mutual interests and more to talk about. It's like they genuinely prefer each other's company over mine, and when we're together and they start talking about the things they've discussed without me or start joking and chatting I just shut right down. They have a history together, which doesn't help my feelings of insecurity. I wonder a lot if they'd just be happier together with me out of the picture; I don't mean that in a suicidal sense, but simply that I feel as though it'd be better if I just went away. I've been finding myself really wanting to just spend time alone lately or with other friends, because I feel so inferior and unwanted otherwise.

I don't really know what to do. I guess I'm just venting; it's just hard to feel like I don't really matter to the people around me and I'm not really sure what to do without raising tensions.