So it's 3am in my area and it's about the 7th night in a row of little to no sleep...

I guess I came here looking for assistance or help. I've been struggling with depression for the past 7-8yrs. I've been to doctors, been on medication that never helped...I saw one therapist who literally told me that what I was upset about was my fault. It gave me such an anxiety about therapists I didn't see one until recently...7 yrs later...
All this one did was ask questions, listen to my answers and tell my doctor which meds to try next. No outside at home suggestions, nothing but pushing meds.

I finally fired my doctor because all she wanted to do was prescribe me things that I didn't want to even consider (sleeping pills and BP meds to calm my heart rate when I have a panic attack). I had my reasons behind not wanting those meds, so she kept trying different things over and over and none helped.

I guess mainly I came here hoping someone would have suggestions. I literally have no desire to do anything I use to find exciting. When I lost my job in April and couldn't find another one I literally started falling deeper. My appetite is down, my desire to cook, clean and see are out the window (things I LOVED doing). Sex drive has diminished over the last month to nothing.

I'm just tired of useless doctors and psychiatrists and therapists. I want something that might actually work for me...I'm so tired of feeling hopeless. After so long of this I just want something to work. I'm tired of being tired and sleepy and lonely.

Does ANYone out there have suggestions. Books, websites, suggestions something? I'd take anything other than doctors and pills -_-

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