hello bluemoonblueearth (cool name)
I just read your post and wanted to let you know I can relate to what you write but I've been up a long time and can't put together a coherent post until I get some sleep. So I'll give you a hug for now and this will hold my place until I can wake up later and I'll be able to find you again.
Looking forward to getting to know you, welcome to PC and all.