((( Mowtown))), it is really nice to have people who can really relate to how we struggle. It is nice to be able to strip away as much as the materialistic and physical and just be able to open up and talk. While you have felt alone, you have been able to see that so many others have that challenge too. When we think of "normal" often we think of something that isn't really normal compared to how we struggle, normal is living life, and having challenges and also having times where we look back on our lives and wish we had done things differently or known more. Normal is also thinking about presenting
this public image even though behind the door of our home, we struggle and have problems.

I think that what is important is that you are making it a point to improve yourself "now". Try to make sure that you stay on track with that and that you don't look back and think about beating yourself up for whatever you didn't see or do before. There were things you just didn't know, there were people around you that "didn't know" that have affected you. You were handed a lot of lemons and you managed to keep making lemonaide, that is who you are in your core, a survivor. You had points where you were low and was not
at your physical best, but you kept working at changing that too. What I hear in you is that you had some big challenges and that you were there for "you" the best way you knew how to be, yes you had some extreme lows too, but there was a part of "you" that stepped up and wanted you to keep living and learning, which you are doing. And you are also at a point where you are also seeing others and stepping up to help and support them too. That is important, when we can do that we are doing our own part in life to hear and help others and share whatever we learned and gained ourselves.

(((Hugs))))