I'm actually embarrassed I even posted about this. Solitude is my friend these days....loving the quiet away from the chaos of my years of teaching middle school: the noise, the drama, the discipline (at which I was not very good), and on the other note, striving to accommodate a man into my life, at which I expended SO much energy, emotional and financial. Truly, I can say that men in my age group have issues. Also, that people in my age group do not "fall in love." So what...is it all about. Company, companionship? Financial security? I have a couple of friends in my age group who would jump at the chance, solely for the financial advantage, and are actively doing so (as the first and foremost reason). I can't do that. Meeting new friends...in a church setting? I doubt I'd identify with any of them.
Anyway, sorry for posting this!