Hi Louise,
You were intolerably depressed. You tapered your depakote with supervision and your illness took a turn for the worse. Please don't blame yourself. Your abilities are there still. I couldn't or wouldn't say I was hypomanic last summer, because it was the first relief I had in long time from depression. I was willing to take any holiday from depression even though down deep I knew depression would come slamming back.

Meta
ps. I find bizi and bipolar bear to continually be very soothing and helpful.