Hi TJ, REALLY pleased for you that you're starting to get the help you need. I know it must be a bit uncomfortable (?) for you to be in the middle of all this, but it really is a big step forward!!
And just try to put out of your mind the insignificant things e.g. if the house is untidy........well it's "lived in", if the neighbours are wondering...........well how big a part of your life are they really, and it'll be something else (other than you) they're wondering about next month if they're like a lot of people...............what matters now is YOU!!

And this bit here: "Was a bit weird... asked me lots of questions... unsure if I gave too much up... clicked onto one thing I mentioned (feel stupid bringing it up here) and he started going on about a different type of medication for something other than depression :s I don't personally think I need that or what I told him is that serious"
Couple of things:
WELL DONE if you were open with him, give yourself CREDIT for that!!!
NEVER feel stupid for bringing ANYTHING up here, you know we don't think you're stupid in the slightest, whatever!!!
And the medication, well it needs reviewing anyway, right? And we know that you can sometimes,be trying to see things from a slightly lighter perspective once the moment/s have passed, right??? So............just a thought..............

As for the going back to work thing though, maybe discuss that with them a bit more..........maybe it will help you doing some hours for as a bit of routine/structure/continuity, something to occupy you, something to stop you worrying about not being there.........but then again if you aren't up to it........why put yourself through that?
Bit more discussion???

Anyway, really good you're back and really good you're getting some help!!

Alison