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Originally Posted by onlymedid
Twice now I have wandered away from home with no recollection of it. My husband has all the texts between him and who he calls "the little one" because he/she has no name.
The first time (last Thursday) he said I was looking for my mom (she died from cancer in 2008) and I ended up pretty close to where she used to live. It was 4 miles from home. He talked to the little one via text and convinced her (after about 4 hours) to give her location and he came and got me. The minute I saw him the fugue was over and I recognized him instantly.
The second time was just 2 days ago. He said that the little one was talking about a shadow man that was with me and telling me what to say and do. The text doesn't say what the shadow man wanted her to do, but he was taunting my husband. My husband called the cops and after 3 or 4 hours they still hadn't found "me". Apparently, the shadow man said through the little one "ha ha the police keep driving by. I told you they wouldn't find me.". eventually, after 8 hours, the little one was able to give out the location to find her, but she was terrified that she was in "so so so much trouble". I still didn't recognize my husband in the car on the way home. he said we got home and when I smelled him while hugging him I finally came to and was myself again. I was sobbing and sooooo scared because I was gone for so long and ended up with blisters on my feet. He said that when we were in the car going home the little one told him where she walked....it was about 10 miles of wandering!!!
he called the police to let them know that he found me and I was home. The police had to come by to make sure I was home. I am terrified of the police so this was very anxiety provoking, but all I had to do was tell him my name and he left.
I am so scared that this might happen again. We think it was triggered by some flashbacks and something that happened when I was a kid.
Has anyone ever had this happen? Do you have any suggestions on what I might do to prevent this in the future? We are going to put bells on the front door so that if anyone hears it, they will know I am trying to leave. Problem is that my husband and son sleep soooooo deeply.
Anyway, I think this is long enough and gives you an idea of how I could use your help! Thanks!  |
has this happened to anyone...yes... I had DID so it was pretty much my whole life from early childhood up until a few yrs ago that alternate personalities would take control and I would end up in locations other than my home town. some as far away as hawaii, europe and gosh knows where. before I was diagnosed with DID this was chalked up to things like anxiety, sleep walking, getting lost (young children normally do walk away from their parents and home at times anyway, theres always news reports on the radio or tv about search parties looking for a child that wandered away from their camp site, home, what have you, so my parents did not see this as abnormal when they could not find me, only to later find me sitting along the road or lost in the woods, or mines.)
what did we do about it...well my parents made sure that at least one adult knew where I was when, unfortunately they did not realize some of those I was left in care of were abusers that intentionally got me lost in the mine shafts, until too late but anyway..
as an adult my wife and I informed the police of my mental disorder and that I may need help and how to help me. I carried a card with me with my name address and phone contacts so that if I could not give that information myself the card could (it came in handy many times) we also kept an emergency savings account that only my wife had access to, so that no matter where I ended up my wife could buy me a ticket home. I also trained myself to look for the nearest police station or phone booth to cal 911 if I found myself wandering in unknown territory.
other than that we just went on the premise that DID wasnt something that just happened to me one day. I had it from early childhood. nothing was going to happen after diagnosis that hadnt already been happening since before I was 5 yrs old. the alters took care of me then they would take care of me as an adult too. if they could find their way home during those times when I did not know I had DID they would do so after I knew I had DID. example we knew the alter that took me to hawaii would get me home eventually because that was not the only time I ended up in hawaii without realizing it. we just preferred not waiting for the alters to bring me home so those other plans were put in place on the chance that I became aware and able to take those steps.