I don't know whether starting a new thread on this is right way to go. But I haven't been here for a few days 'cos of lack of time and privacy.
I am now working away from my BF. Things went on up and down and hit up when he said he will make things okay and try to behave better. This he said after a particularly good day together and we had a great time together (in all ways).
Now he is caught up with other issues and is behaving completely awfully. Asking me like, why I didn't marry someone else, how I can ask to marry him, that it is okay for him to leave because he had fun so far, etc.
I can't take it. I am keeping it together for my family's sake but is he right to treat me like trash for my past. I lost my virginity to someone I loved but other than that, I haven't moved beyond flirting/second base with anyone else. He says I've betrayed whom I'll marry and I have nothing to offer anyone except a family and kids.
I keep breaking away but I am so scared. The way he says I am not fit to love, that I have nothing to offer to my life partner. All this makes me so scared. To top this off, some people I flirted with have told him that I have had sex with him. He says that all guys keep telling it to him and refuse to believe me. I am dying inside hearing all this. I am so terrified. If I leave him, I am worried as to what will happen next, who'll say what.
My ex whom I loved a lot behaved the same way and left me for someone else. Now I keep fearing my BF will do the same and just leave me in an emotional mess. I am so scared