i finally got an appt to see T again after a break and i had to call up today and reschedule and couldnt get an appt until 3weeks away

i had to reschedule cos have to go to hosp for physical health

im really lost cos i know i need T and want to go and then another part is just feakin out and doesnt want to go
so right now i am mix of emotions in regards to this one part is pissed off and the other relieved

for all you out there that i lean on and who hold me up above the water thank you and warning to u that i may need more support but know i will give it back one hundred fold