Thank you so much waiting4. I don't know if I actually have BP, but with the soup of symptoms I have, that's how I've been labeled. The big problem is that I'm alone. My family loves me, but I get a lot of anxiety being around them; probably from the childhood trauma. I have two good friends here, but I don't see them often. I really just don't have any support. I keep having this anxious depression and I don't know what to do anymore. I probably don't need a romantic relationship now, I have a lot of other things to sort out before I could be available for another. I just don't have that intimacy, closeness with anyone. I just don't what to do. Thanks for your response. Just so alone.