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Originally Posted by Dix888
It is really common for people like us to self-medicate. My pdoc was not shocked when I drank a pint of gin at one sitting. It made me sick as hell but I was "treating" insomnia that way.
Certain substances are legal in my state & that helps me sleep, too. Lack of sleep is my main indicator that I'm going super manic.
I am 61 & have never been hospitalized. I have an extreme fear of being hospitalized. I've been so manic that I've heard the moon talking to me, gone outside & climbed to the tops of trees at 3 a.m. & not been hospitalized. Before I got diag., spring & summer were when I was super manic & I survived somehow.
After diag. at age 46, it took around 5 years to get me on the rights meds. My pdoc, after treating me for a little over a year, told me to raise dosages myself to help me sleep since insomnia for long periods of time can cause hallucinations
Only you know when things are getting too bad. I'd say not showering for longer than 3 days, forgetting to eat for longer than 4 meals & not sleeping for more than 4 hours/night for longer than a week---together, all those say it's time for serious help
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Little did I know through the years. I have been through some mania that lasted for months probably years combined with depression mixed in. I have done some self med at times, and it seemed to work a hell of a lot better than any big pharma that I've been on. In fact, I got really angry on Prozac. I had an anger spree this week. I've been debating stopping Depacote because of side effects. I know the clinic will get mad. Well when things are getting bad, I don't have time for the hassle of dealing with them.
In short, how can I get a job if I am too manic to focus, but too zoombied to do anything. I am trying to figure out a way to start my treatment somewhere else. I don't have many options. I have tried mental health clinic twice and it has not worked. What can I possibly do?