Lol, I *think* I appreciate you playing devil's advocate, it is one of my favorite roles normally too.

Sigh, you're right, of course, I'm under no obligation to see her, but this woman is... well, she is an awful lot to me, and of course, there's also the fact I seem to be making great progress with her.

You're right... some things are beyond my control, certainly. I may well need to just accept this and continue on course, after all, the terms haven't changed for me, it's just seeing that tantalizingly close option to be her client for so much less is a real bother, disheartening and upsetting and confusing. It's fresh is what it is, having just seen it.