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Originally Posted by Favorite Jeans
I'd be seeing red too. It's especially upsetting given how much you've had to go into debt to pay her and how hard you've had to work to cut down on your hours just to stay within a reasonable budget for your family. I'd want to feel that T was trying really hard to look out for me and it would sting to find out that others had access to her for much cheaper.
I've also had some intense reactions to professional choices my T has made, most recently her cutting back her hours, because of how I feel it could affect my connection with her.
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Thank you, this is so spot on how I feel... I have made my choices, and I will never blame her for the amount I've paid for therapy, but.... I can wish that she'd be looking out for me and right now... I'm not sure about that AT all.
I told her the other day... paying for this course of therapy was her was the difference between being in the black and the red every month.
If I didn't pay so much, my budget would balance, but it's so worth it to me to maintain our connection, to see her for therapy, I'd committed to that, but now it just seems... I don't know, it just seems patently unfair to know she's willing to work somewhere else and keep me on the side as a cash cow.
I'm surely exaggerating because I'm upset. I pay a fair rate, it's just that because there's no insurance to cover it, it's hard to handle out of pocket. She doesn't overcharge me, it's just... to see how little the other site charges... wow.