What's going on, Johnny? Do you want to talk about it?

I told you on another thread I'm afraid you are burning out. We have three basic states, two of them are highly aroused. The third is relaxation, parasympathy. A lot of us bounce between sympathetic arousal and parasympathetic opiate-calm and never know we aren't resting.

Fixing that can fix a lot of things.

The body is not unforgiving. It's you. Give it some rest, and I didnt sat stop working or training just add deep relaxation...do tre, there I said it, and see.

The way you said it males me feel concerned. It's OK to talk about it. I don't recall reading how old you are but around fifty, I begin to feel mortal. For the first time I realise suicide may have competition for what takes me out. It's scary.

You've inspired me, Johnny, to address my whole life , and make it better. So talk if you want.