Why not make it what you do want instead if what it is?
This a video on a fixed vs growth mindset. It's about learning style but I think it applies to a lot of life. The idea is some of us were told we did well because we were smart and some of us because we worked hard. This is in line with the idea I read about in Malcolm Gladwell's outliers where anyone can become an expert with 10,000 hours worth of effort...you just have to set a goal and put in the time. I'm not sure what you want out of life but set your goals and try and I recommend something that involves helping other people because it rewarding and socially connecting.