I messed up. I forgot to take my night meds last night. I took them out and put them on the table, then they were gone from the table so I assumed I had taken them. This morning I found them on the floor. So that explains why I didnt get a wink of sleep and I was super anxious all night. by 5.30am I was panicing so I took some ativan, then found the meds and quickly took my morning dose. I feel absolutely awful. I have no one to turn to, I really need a hug but I have no one. I worry I will have a panic attack and kill myself or go completely bonkers, I dont want that to happen but I feel like it will. Terrifying. If all else fails I will turn to xyprexa, but there goes my productive day.