Little did I know through the years. I have been through some mania that lasted for months probably years combined with depression mixed in. I have done some self med at times, and it seemed to work a hell of a lot better than any big pharma that I've been on. In fact, I got really angry on Prozac. I had an anger spree this week. I've been debating stopping Depacote because of side effects. I know the clinic will get mad. Well when things are getting bad, I don't have time for the hassle of dealing with them.

In short, how can I get a job if I am too manic to focus, but too zoombied to do anything. I am trying to figure out a way to start my treatment somewhere else. I don't have many options. I have tried mental health clinic twice and it has not worked. What can I possibly do?