I know what you mean by OCD getting in the way. Are you on meds for the OCD or something else? My OCD got out of control this year again and I finally went back on meds (after being pushed by my T and doc to do so). It has helped so much and its finally like I'm getting some of my life back. I know what you mean by people not understanding and not wanting to burden them. It is really hard to understand what having a life is like when it is completely run by fear. Everything you do has to be thought of well in advance. It takes so much time and energy just to be awake.

I'd really encourage you to look into trying different meds and maybe different therapy too. You're not alone, and things can get better with time. I know that is hard to believe but it is possible. Try not to lose sight of that hope.

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