I want this to be over. Please make it go away. I hate blood drives. There are posters up, people talking about it, I can't take this much longer. I want to give blood. I want to see it come out of me. I want to feel release. I want to just so I can take the bandage thing off and watch the blood pour down my arm. I know I can't let myself give blood because it wouldn't be enough. But I can't take this pain. I can feel it. I could feel it all night. The dull ache of my arm. The need for release. The feeling on my wrist. The kind that says you need to cut here, you need to cut here, you need to you need to you need to. I can't take this much longer. It's slowly driving me insane. I want to cry, I want to hurt, I want to see blood, to taste it. I need to go find somebody....