Hi, IT, wow can I relate to what you have written.

It's odd, because I could think of some things to say to you to try to change your mind - some really logical, sensible things. So why is it so much harder to do that for ourselves?

I feel life to be an endurance test, I don't fit in, don't find fulfilment in things, I try to make the best of each day and tell myself there is much to be thankful for - but..............................

I do wonder if it is depression - despite thinking it is not - are thoughts of suicide really within normal human existence, or do they equate so some malfunction in our neurons?

I hope you can find a way through how you feel right now - I haven't given up yet.

Take care - Soup