I know all too well the pain of losing a pet. I've lost several in the past, all my 10 cats in our fire this past December, and our goat of 13 years just a few weeks ago. Allow yourself to grieve. You need to. And it takes time, sometimes a very long time. I'm grieving and just accept that I will be for quite awhile yet. Losing a pet is the same as losing any other member of the family. Simply put, it hurts. Thoughts are with you.