So I had to make myself get out of bed because I'd been lying there awake for quite some time and shivering thinking about our electric bill. My husband had what we had left to pay from the rental home we were staying at after our fire to our new bill here at our new house, and it was over $300. I didn't notice there was a termination notice on it til I looked at it again yesterday - right before we went to Wal-Mart. The 18th. We paid half of it last week so I think are okay; but that scared me to death anyway, and I was on the verge of tears the whole time we were at Wal-Mart, my husband grouching at me and saying how I am was getting on his nerves. I'm really afraid of the electric being out - it's a bad trigger for me - since we were out for 10 days after the derecho 2 years ago. We're paying the other half tomorrow, but I'm just having irrational thoughts and still really scaring myself. Just thinking about that notice makes me light-headed and faint and about to cry. I was doing so well for a couple days. It's so frustrating that I can't stay okay and that things keep happening. I just wish this were tomorrow so I could go pay that bill. Hate having to wait... I still feel scared, though, that even after I pay it they'll turn it off. More irrational thoughts I suppose.