Hi ThisWayOut, it is really good that you want to reach out, but do you think you could try another crisis chat line maybe? Here's a link for some various ones you could maybe try, if you haven't already:
http://unsuicide.wikispaces.com/Onli...p#.U53vEmN3tco
But while you're looking just keep up as far as you can with the distractions and add whatever/anything to the list e.g. writing, walking, calling a friend.............just try doing all you can, hey? And we're here as well btw.
Alison