I know I haven't posted much here or anywhere for that matter. But I don't know. I feel like I am sinking. It is getting hard to even hold my head up. I am doing everything that I should be doing, as hard as it is to do. I just can't seem to get out of here, I claw my way up a little bit and then I lose my grip and I fall further and further down. I am not sure how much lower I can go. It is getting so hard. I just feel like I am being swallowed up. My head hurts - Will there ever be relief???? How do I find it? Please please show me the way. Anything anybody.......