I don't know the particulars of your relationship with your guy-friend. But I had a good friend attempt Suicide before. I just gave her an ear when she wanted one. For you I can see where you want to know how he is and need some kind of closure to put it behind you, or you might feel like it is always there. Maybe discuss reasons they don't want you to visit, or make it a short visit and have a friend drive with you for support. Good luck.