Hey everyone, sorry I've been MIA. I totally agree with what has been said previously about giving her too much power. I am doing that. I have a bad habit of doing that. I always have. It's just that I have just been so lonely for so long, and the thought of actually being with this girl I've been infatuated with for the past 2 years is just so overwhelmingly pleasant. I recognize that I don't know her, or her personality, but I am wanting to get to know that. She seemed responsive at first, but now she just hasn't replied back. But it seems like she hasn't even been on facebook at all since then, so I don't know. I'll give it some time. It really does things to you though, going through all of college, without ever having had a a girlfriend or any intimate experience. All those lonely Friday nights where you wish you could just cuddle up to someone and watch a movie together in your room? Well now that I am in contact with this girl, I can't help but fantasize about that. I'm the kind of person that just needs something to look forward to, so I just need to have some sort of dream in the back of my head. Also, I am trying to get over another crush I have been struggling with on one of my past professors. It's a very unhealthy crush that I am trying my very best to shake off, which is also partly why I am trying to get so invested in this new girl. It's just hard to not fixate on someone, when it feels so natural to do just that. I'm trying my best though, I really am.