I am sorry you are having such a tough time, I can relate. Kind to you.

I agree with skeezyks about trying to accept your feelings for what they are, be kind to yourself and allow the feelings to go on their way. Because eventually they will. Kind of like a wave, the build, peak and recede. I do know that it may feel like one wave after another.....but I promise over time and with support this will change.

When I feel overwhelmed I try to focus on the now, something that I can see or do now that can give me a moments peace from the despair of my feelings. Is there something....any one thing you could do today that could be a distraction?

Imagine, if it were an ideal world and you were able to do the ideal thing today....what would that be? Is there any way you can try that? Would it be to fix a nice meal for yourself and the family to celebrate fathers day? Even beans on toast, or order takeaway?

Mostly, be kind to yourself if you can and take good care sunny.