I ramble too, thumbtyping.

Ive back from Friends Meeting for Worship. Quakers traditionally observe no special days, so no one mentioned the Hallmarkday. I think its a GOOD tradition. I spent my fiftieth birthday alone so I know about lost time. It isnt necessary to feel bad that you are out of sync with a symbolic day.

Look up "kenosis". Its not about Atkins diet, lol! It means emptying out. Its associated wirh the "dark night of the soul". Maybe its ok to be empty, or necessary, and almost certainly better to live wirh emptyness until the ride turns than to try to fill up frantically.

I was a "good enough mother" wirh PTSD and other non-psychiatric issues. Ive been seeing mg patente in a new light lately. They did really well. Dad was crazy but he built a nice life. Mom was crazier but she filled our World wirh elegance and beauty.

Trauma lives in the body. The best therapies address the body. When we can relieve the body of its burden. , we can feel again. We can be natural again. The most disturbing traumas can be slay addressed by fhe mind when tue body is allowed to be in Its natural state.

Dissociation is a mind body split. Yoga is a mind body yoke. There's a retired Navy Seal (Mikal Vega) who says kundalini yoga cured him after psychiatry nearly killed him. His Vital Warrior pages link to David Bercelis Trauma Releasing Exercises. You can Learn a safe and effective method to reset trauma body to alive and peaceful body from a book. Try it and be amazed.

While you shake off trauma and tension doing Bercelis tre you can read Peter Levine's books or listen to him on audio CD. TRE is that simple, and Levine's books are that important.

Other names to know are Alan Schore and Robert Scaer. If you want to totally geek out on mind-body trauma neurology, learn about Porges's Polyvagal Theory. I forget his first name, but how many peorges wirh a polyvagal theory can there be?

You so NOT have to pore over every detail of your trauma or even remember or discuss it wirh a therapist. I know people continue to promote that, but it is not necessary. Psychodynamic therapy is great for developmental trauma, but doesn't touch PTSD. I have benefited from psychodynamic therapy for early childhood issues, but only GABA powder and TRE have had an effect on PTSD symptoms.

It is confusing that people use the term "ptsd" to refer to any disorder causes by trauma, but I bet you can figure out what your situation is. The point isnt to become diagnosticians but to get well. You CAN get well. I am amazed that I am even here, and while I complain a lot, its been a pretty incredible recovery for me. I was sure I would die a suicide, and an awful lot of PTSD folks do. There is real hope of a life that is easy to wake up to, pleasant, fun, energetic,enjoyable.

Body centered therapies will get you back in your body where now is. Where life is. I'd say start with Berceli. It may be all you need. If you do, please let me know what you think.