It sounds like you have a lot to deal with all at once, looking for a new job, possibly relocating, losing your partner, and possibly a divorce (not sure if this is on the table or not).

It sounds like you really escaped from what could have been a horrible situation. I'm glad that you are no longer contacting your partner-- he sounds awful.

I am not sure how you can stop feeling guilty and move on from this. Do you want to patch things up with your husband or are you done with that relationship?