Hazelgirl, you might be interested in reading about Kernberg's Borderline Personality Organization (BPO). Both my current therapist and former therapist don't go by the DSM descriptions; instead, they only recognize the 3 levels of personality organization:
Neurotic
Borderline
Psychotic
Depends on:
- ego strength
- emotional defenses
- internalized object relations/attachment
- reality testing ?
- sense of self
- superego integration
- impulse control
This is because hardly anyone matches the set of symptoms listed the DSM categories. All the cluster Bs and some others usually fall under BPO because it's pretty broad like CPTSD. What you describe in your posts consistently sounds like BPO. Just my opinion.
I saw at least a dozen therapists and psychiatrists, but no one told me I could be Borderline. It makes me angry today because I could have gotten the proper treatment when I was younger had I known. You are so young-this is good that you are looking into this now.
The Three Levels of Personality Organization - Personality Disorders
This link doesn't say much, but if you google the terms, you can read more about it through online books. Take care.